affnty A

dread is the order of the day. school is so fun. school is so exciting.

i want to graduate. then when i am done, i want to be back in school.

i also want an iphone now. oh but what about train ride aka adventure aka ’soul searching journey.’ think the fortune teller told me. i like my phone now but stubby fingers scream longer non-existent fingernails. & when when when would itouch come to me.

ytd we agreed that this  radical generation shift had somehow eclipsed us. i am twenty one yet i feel old all around. wth. aren’t i the peak of adolescence. so shared the sentiment not just by me. we made ourselves comfortable at retrojello. cuz so apt it was. buzzerbeat huh. hideaki ito in his manly yum. yamapi yawn. the basketball sequence so premediated and contrived.

diary?

ytd she asked, why i was so. because because. i never want to be in the first place.

like everything is set in stone the moment you open your mouth and words formed.

like we don’t keep changing minds.

like we really know what lies inside the workings.

i want to design book covers & have my reign over poor book authors. we talked about writing a book. entitled midafternoon. we’ll have zombies instead.